Uggghhhh

[Lofty1589]

Hey guys, so this is kind of a rant. Since I can’t talk to anyone else about this - constant tutting, rolling of eyes and comments get too much - you guys are my next option.

I am currently waiting for a date for my diagnostic laparoscopy to confirm whether or not I have endometriosis and awaiting an MRI as well. I’m taking my pill for two packs straight, then having a break, for the first time and I am not enjoying it.

Painkillers aren’t helping. My body can’t handle anti-inflammatories thanks to nearly a year without them (anti-depressants), codeine does nothing. Currently on Co-dydramol (which takes the barest edge off) after trying various pain relief but nothing is hitting this pain

I am in utter agony right now. I had time off work recently after being signed off by the doctor and being back is good because it means I don’t have as much pressure on me to return, but being here in work is extremely stressful. I feel like running into the toilets to have a panic attack 😭 My big boss is very insensitive and basically claims that I ruin the team’s morale when I’m not here and stress everyone out (I’m only an apprentice and everything I do can be done by others but they aren’t big tasks)

At this moment, I am sitting at my desk barely able to concentrate. My hips and pelvis are excruciatingly painful and I feel like I can’t sit and stay still, but can’t move around either. I keep getting pain in my thighs and back, which radiates upwards a lot. I’m getting chest pains too that occasionally take my breath away. I don’t sleep well - had 4 hours last night - and can’t face wearing pyjama trousers to bed because of the waistband potentially making my pain worse.

I honestly don’t know what to do any more. I’m completing an NVQ here at work which goes on until Oct, even if I finish early, but I’m at the point of not wanting to be here any more because of stress.

Also, eating is like pot luck. My body decides which food it will allow each day - if it doesn’t like it, hello pain and a toilet trip! 😭 This is all so frustrating

Thanks for reading all this drivvel. I’m trying to cope but failing miserably at this point. I am tempted to keep pushing my gynae but I’m worried that it will just make everything worse

[Hidden]

So sorry to hear what a hard time you are going through ❤ I know how you feel and how hard you try to keep everything together and how much is this frustrating..I hope you get your lap as soon as possible and feel much better!

Hugs and love xx

[Lofty1589 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. I really appreciate it xx

[Amyskb]

Hello,

Reading your post makes me feel sad. Im sorry that you have to bear all this pain and the frustration.

I hope everything gets better for u soon and u r spared from all this misery! Feel free to contact me if you need to talk to some1.

[Lofty1589 in reply to Amyskb]

Thank you so much xx