I'm sure lots of you share this feeling but I am just feeling so hopeless. I'm so sick of being in pain and feeling unwell and so desperate to get back to work and some kind of normality, and maybe one day even manage to get pregnant! It's not too much to ask is it?
Just don't have the fight in me that is needed to chase up doctors , MRI scans and trying to get the right treatment and people to listen to me. I keep being sent down the orthopedic route when I'm convinced the sciatic pain in my lower back and hips, along with lots of other horrible symptoms is the result of the adhesions on my bowel returning.
Why is it that it looks like the only solution is to get a private appointment, which I can hardly afford, just to get someone to listen?!!! And even then it might be a waste of time as they can't say anything until I have the MRI. Which means I have to spend another month in pain, hardly being able to move, or have sex, or stay awake for longer than a couple of hours. And even after getting the MRI done I will have to wait ages for a follow up with no guarantee of an answer especially when they seem determined to focus on it being an orthopedic problem- despite two different physiotherapists saying it is unlikely, as up until a couple of weeks ago and ending up in hospital on morphone because of the pain, the symptoms were only present when I was on my period.
Feeling fed up, defeated and ignored, and kind of like I'm going mad.
Sorry for the rant xx