Hi, totally new to this and writing this while home alone and feeling a bit miserable. Had referral yesterday with gyne who has put me forward for a laporoscopy with suspected endo in pelvic area and diaphragm. She was very insistent that it's very rare and they will more than likely find nothing. Been suffering with pain for years and it's getting worse every month. Me and dh have been trying to concieve for 6 months to no avail. We waited for ages until we were married and bought a house etc until we were 'ready' though we were emotionally ready a long time ago. Now feels like shouldn't have bothered with all of that stuff and just got on with it! Dh is much older than me so though I get the 'but you're still young' line from everyone including friends and family, dh is not and I think it would put a strain on things if we concieved late in his life. I'm 25 but feel a hectic of a lot older! Having this potential endo diagnosis is enough but I also have polysistic ovaries and Ehlers Danlos Syndrome type 3. Life is exhausting at the moment but we are so desperate to have a family. I'm not scared of the lapo just frightened of what it will uncover. Dh will be there no matter what, even if I can't concieve but I'm concerned how I will cope. So fed up of feeling broken, tired and like I can't join in with others. I hate the effect it all has on my dh, my family, my work and social life. I don't know how they put up with it all. How do I get over the constant feeling of sadness and that I don't feel like a woman?