Loser

[7Steve5]

After going 20 days alcohol free which I was pleased with, then I had one night out with family, got drunk and had a good time. Not good but I was OK with that, 3 days after feeling like crap and moody I gave in again and drunk half a bottle of vodka which has made me feel like a complete Loser and the 20 days AF I done is now down the toilet and meant nothing, so this Loser will be starting back at square one, Again !!!!

[Jampacked]

You are back here determined, 20 days is amazing its a massive achievement. Every dry streak you learn more and more.I hear your frustration. Do you need more support around you? Did your family know you were trying to quit? Do you need an inperson recovery group to help? I am trying to identify my trigger situations. I have joined club soda still nervous about attending a sober social but maybe try this. A new social life for a brand new you. Glad to have you back in the AF Steve sobriety is a journey. You are not a loser you are addicted to an addictive substance.

[7Steve5 in reply to Jampacked]

Thank you

[FatOldMan]

Your not a loser if you are back here again and determined to give it another go, which it sounds like you are. Twenty days is quite an achievement, so good luck for the next three weeks. It's a very long time since I managed that long, I can never get past one week.

[7Steve5 in reply to FatOldMan]

Thank you

[Maxinejoanne]

Don't blame yourself stay strong

[SoberDrunk1]

Steve, please read the book Alcoholics Anonymous. Understanding the condition you can forge a recovery. Without help we will be doing this over and over again.

[LilyAnnepuppy Ambassador]

Each day is square one. I can’t stay sober without my 12 Step program. I need other people. Keep trying.

[7Steve5 in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Thank you

[fauxartist]

The door is always open as they say....alcohol is the great deceiver....you feel great after the first few drinks and then you don't the next day or so depending on how much your drank. When you hit rock bottom like I did...you'll know it... you don't have to lose everything, but many of us do...I lost my dignity, self esteem, and friends...that and being broke and sick the next day got to be a real drag....so....I surrendered.

[Hewligan]

Nothing is simple. I've messed up a lot when I thought I was doing well. Just be kind to yourself and do the best you can. It's not easy. Beating yourself up just adds to the stress.

[YNWA68]

Don’t count it as 20 days you’ve lost be proud you banked 20 days alcoholic free. That’s an achievement. Just a little blip don’t beat yourself up 😊👍

[catsrock]

You are not a loser. You are working on this and sometimes, being human, we slip up. You did 20 days and that's great. I hope you can be kind to yourself. We are here to cheer you on.

[7Steve5 in reply to catsrock]

Thank you so much

[DicCarlson]

You'll get it right! I had a good friend - worst drunk I had seen - bombed at 8AM! Our mutual boss actually took him to rehab, some 2 hour drive away for a 10 day stint. It didn't work and he did it again, still drinking - a lot. the third time was a charm - he's been sober for 30 years now!

When you’re going through hell, keep going. – Winston Churchill