Day 3 and counting

[Clanger152]

Yay I made it past day 2 and now feel confident that I can go another day without giving in to the demon that is alcohol. Slightly worried that my habit of picking up a bottle of wine on way out of work might kick in but my plan is to walk the opposite way to bws dept. If I can do that today I can do it tomorrow too🤞

[LilyAnnepuppy Ambassador]

Don’t worry about tomorrow. We only do this one day at a time. I ask myself often, “Do I have a drink in my hand?” And in each moment, I don’t.

By the way, congratulations for making it another day.

If you’d be interested, I have a link for online AA meetings. I make one on Zoom every morning. It helps get me through the day.

[Clanger152 in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Yes please that might be useful. Thank you for your support, it means a lot to know that other people care. Living alone means I can hide how much I (used to) drink so being accountable on here even though it's anonymous has made me realise I'm not in this on my own x

[LilyAnnepuppy Ambassador in reply to Clanger152]

I PMd you.

[Hidden in reply to Clanger152]

to be honest i dont think id have stopped for that 3 months if lived alone, it was lockdown and id stored boxes intended to put some in a bottle half fill it take to mam house maby once twice week for weekend treat,as was living there, get into meditation as id giome cds from buddhist class, but due to a meet with a friend and a hug in park mam was in panic i had to move back to my house where i had ptsd, i was in a state drank wine the box next day well you can imagine, i hid the drinking pretended was ok, i had blood test routine showed one of my liver counts was high i had to stop and wanted to i was drinking far too much i had stashed 5 boxes away and in the house with them you can imagine,i asked mam for help we went to AA together as i mentioned, well it was hard first couple weeks but each day its a day over i was stressed at times and as my usual reaction was to drink id get non alco beer and wine just the smell and motions of opening it holding it was a comfort, im crying as i write as i hate all this thing about drink why we tbink we need it, im facing tryner stop my addiction to been on here,its like the drink im ok if its out of reach🙄 it does help tho holding the phone instead of a drink, im on another site anxiety, please report back each day, i do need to stop totally as one binge could kill i dread the day my mam or cat dies i prob will too

[Clanger152 in reply to Hidden]

I know where you're coming from. That's why I need to stop. You have my support❤️

[Hidden in reply to Clanger152]

thank you i fell over my cat when i was on the boxes episode i could hardly get out bed i told mam she went mad said ive washed my hands of you this made me drink during the day i had no support no company i had to say in a message help ne im a alcoholic i thought i was turned out it was cought in time, i despise myself when i buy the wine i feel sad im not normal, its like a grief tryner stop sometimes last time i did a 2 week stop i was feeling bored like theres nothing ti look firward too, so it was back to moderation attempted drinking, so i bought bottles of ale got one each time went to shop had about 3 in luckily i am nit keen so ok with them or cans, i used to drink cider too when on a stress binge and id drink a full bottle, i never used to drink hardly when in my 3os id drink lambrini on satdy night🤮too sweet cant drink it now i ended up on strong wine as my step dad was getting it cheap from his lorry driver mate and it built up never every night back then as i have health anxiety which has stopped me, i wish you all the best of luck 🤗💚🌟😺

[LilyAnnepuppy Ambassador in reply to Hidden]

Admitting you’re an alcoholic is a very big step. You were able to stop in AA. Maybe think about trying it again? We’re here for you, Sweetheart.

[chloe40]

You're doing great Clanger152

Step by step, hour by hour and you're doing that!

<3

[Wish3]

yes I do distraction now will go for a walk etc. but I am drinking tonight but able to enjoy a few glasses slowly not a few bottles quickly!🤷‍♀️💪❤️