The term "food addiction" is thrown around all the time like it's a great excuse to why some people are fat. But what if I told you it's absolutely not an excuse...
Ladies and Gents, I'm a food addict.
That's why I'm fat. I have a complete love of high fat high sugar food. It gives me a rush of happiness I can't explain and it makes me feel "settled" somehow... It's almost like I'm at "base camp" or emotional "ground zero" when I'm eating high fat high sugar food, it's zen.
With that addiction comes a whole host of other symptoms:
Not eating in front of people
Eating until uncomfortable
Eating when not hungry
The whole shebang.
People don't recognise food addiction and I think that's because of the phrase itself. you here: "how can you be addicted to food, you need food to live"... and I agree, I'm not addicted to all food. I'm addicted to anything (and I mean anything) with high fat, high sugar contents. This is not a new thing, food addiction has always been around.. we've just called it "cravings" for a very long time and that word doesnt even begin to cut it...
This is a typical "craving" for me: So I know there's Pringles in the cupboard before we have friends over.. I will take the Pringles and hide them upstairs so they don't get eaten by anyone else, then after everyone leaves my hands will literally ache until I go and get the Pringles and eat them in the bathroom so my partner/ parents etc don't see me. I'll then throw the can in the outside bin inside a carrier bag so no one sees it.
The perfect crime.
Does that sound like just a "craving" to you?
That my friends is addiction, and it's about time we started admitting it.
This is also why when people say to me "oh just have 1 bit of cake, it wont hurt" I reply with "Would you offer a cig to someone quitting smoking?"... there seems to be a complete lack of understanding that there's no such thing as 1 piece of cake. Not ever.
I, like most food addicts, don't have a diagnosis or any professional help to quit, we have to go it alone because getting a GP to understand is almost impossible. They put you on diet plans and appetite suppressants that work for a few months, but as soon I relax I go straight back to old ways. It just doesn't deal with the heart of the problem. Want to know why this country is fat? Because there's about 15 causes of obesity and our current system in the NHS deals with about 2 of them.
We go on diets and our relationship with food becomes ever more unhealthy. We start to see food as the enemy, crash diet and as soon as we reintroduce that high fat high sugar food we go back to old habits. This constant rocking backwards demoralises, then makes you think "well this is just the way I am, I'll be fat forever".
It certainly rings true for me.
The ONLY way forward for food addicts like me is dealing with addiction cold turkey. No "trigger foods" at all. Ever.
For this reason, I will never again eat Pringles, never again eat chocolate digestives, chicken bbq pizza and chips, hobnobs, sensations or anything else on the long long list of foods that got me to this point.
That doesn't mean i can never have a takeaway again. I could have a grilled chicken kebab, I could have biscuits too just not the varieties I know I binge on because the MINUTE I go back to those foods it throws me completely off and I can't stop myself eating them. My hands and feet physically HURT with the resistance.
How can anyone expect to battle that kind of addiction alone with a diet plan for company??
That's why this whole health kick is not about losing weight for me. It's about kicking the addiction for good. I don't know how to do that, there's no information online or help groups to be a part of that deal with food addiction so I don't know what will happen. All i know is I'm staying strong and absolutely never giving in to a "craving" again.