So my mom 93 a COPD sufferer is going into a care home later today it is her wish as she needs more care than I can give her. I feel I have failed her although I gave her all I had in me it just wasn't enough. Her health is failing daily and it is so painful for her to be suffering with retching & coughing constantly, unable to do anything but sit & suffer. It is horrible to watch someone you love in such endless pain wishing herself dead!!! Now diagnosed with emphysema which I suspected a long time ago. I have struggled with a chest infection this weekend and feel awful. I feel I have let mom down badly & should have done more, the guilt is so overwhelming it has bought me to my knees, I don't know if we can ever get our once close relationship back again. I just hope & pray I have found her the care she needs & deserves and that soon her suffering will be over & she will be at peace. Jan.