Increase in my meds........

[sylvi]

Saw the rheumy nurse this morning. She gave me a bit of a shock to be honest. My broken ankle was a lot worse than i believed and it is the reason my ankle swells up a lot. She is going to get my gp to increase my dosage of the meds i am taking. She said she would get it faxed over to my drs surgery which she did and i have been in contact with my surgery who said it was there and the lovely lady who dealt with me said she will get them issued hopefully without me having to see the gp. Bearing in mind the drs know me up there anyway so i doubt that would be a problem. With it being this close to Christmas i hope they will deal with it and with the proviso i go back in the new year.

This mornings visit and the one last week with pain management have led me to believe i am a lot worse than i thought i was. I don't know how ill i am to be honest,i know i don't feel well a lot of the time and i feel i shouldn't feel like this or is it because of the negative press to people like us. We are perceived as scroungers and such llike and i am not,but i feel it anyway and i feel guilty because i can't do much round the house anymore either and don't get me started on my garden. So if there is a scale on how ill we are and how do we judge it. Now i see a lot of you as being worse healthwise than i am and i am sure you see me as worse than you are. I am waffling now aren't i. I will leave this with you all.xxx

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Hi sylvi,

What a lovely cheerful Christmas tree! So sorry to hear you are in so much discomfort and that health isn't so good. I don't think you should be worrying at all that you feel you shouldn't complain when you aren't feeling well, and feel you can't admit to it because of 'bad press'. It's just too horrible to be pretending you feel fine when really you aren't and you need to be kinder to yourself and take it easy when you aren't feeling well.

The 'bad press' you are speaking of is a disgrace to all older people who are being scapegoated and I think you should treat it with the contempt it deserves. Of course it's good not to be constantly feeling sorry for yourself, but you are absolutely entitled to express how you are feeling, especially when you really aren't feeling well.

And don't worry about 'waffling' either. That's what this forum is for. A good rant or waffle is absolutely fine by us, so you just carry on.

Very best wishes and please be kind to yourself.

[sylvi in reply to Hidden]

Thank you darling. I do feel guilty for being ill and that my hubby has to do it. It really came to a head when hubby tidied up the garden when it has always been my job(in my mind anyway) I think i am still in shock about that them wham bang another hit this week. Well at least i will be the lady of the house sitting about like the Queen while others do it for me. I have to laugh otherwise i would sink and that is one thing i won't let these isidious diseases take away from me. xxxx