Led was buried on Friday 15th. The service and internment were beautiful- if that is a word to use - regarding such an occasion. It was very personal to Les and how much he was loved by his family.
Now I have to try to continue my life without him.
I have never felt so alone as I do now. I am no longer part of a couple, I am just me. I am sure others must have felt this way. After 41 years of marriage and a further 2 years before we married making 43 years of loving the man I buried.
I must sound very selfish but I miss being able to get a cuddle from the person who was my world. I don't want him back to suffer this vile disease but as he was prior to PSP.
I am lucky in that I have family and friends. Why do I still feel so alone? Losing a partner is hard enough without watching them struggle to fight PSP.
Sorry for rambling on. Our beautiful middle granddaughter (she is 1 of 5) asked at school if she could write a Christmas card to grandpa, it read "to grandpa, Merry Christmas - I wish you were still here - lots of love Lakota". I hoped she would be able to accept that grandpa was with the angels now. Guess I am wrong about that.