Hi all,
I hope you're all having a non problematic day so far!
I've posted before, but just a bit of background... I was diagnosed with decompensated cirrhosis in August 2023 after I collapsed in my flat, I thought I'd just gad a tummy bug. I was malnourished and my HB was 35, which I'm told is quite low?? I've not had a drink since that day. I was in hospital for 2 weeks as I had complications after my 4 blood transfusions.
I work in finance, full time from home. I had a occupational health assessment who put me on a 4 week phased return. I'm through an agency so not getting paid was a worry but my work sorted it which was great.
In August last year, I was still decompensated after a year and my consultant said she thought it 'was time' given the prognosis if not having a transplant. So off I went to Edinburgh for my week assessment. On day 2 they told me ild not be going on the list as I was too healthy, but to finish the week anyway so I'd not need the full week again should things change.
My little pea brain wasn't equipped to cope with good news, and decided to short circuit and I had a wee psychotic episode lasting over a week which ended up with my neighbours calling the police as I was screaming in the garden thinking my ex husband was getting murdered in the shed π good times ....
Since then, my fatigue has been out of control and I've missed work due to sleeping in ( I mean I didn't wake up for the whole day). Along with that I've had brain fog and difficulty concentrating, meaning even when I'm not off, I'm not producing as fast as I should.
I was warned they were looking at their options and basically to shape up or ship out. Now this really helped with my Borderline Personality Disordercand concentration π
My consultant has prescribed me Rifaximin which she said should help with concentration π€ my agency set up another Occupational Health Assessment two days ago and his report says ill be at 50% less productive at least until the medicine kicks in. I think my boss wants me out anyway (not sure if it'd be the same reaction had it been a different illness), but is treading carefully due to me being classed as protected and disabled. Not that it matters since I'm an agency worker, even though I've been there 3 years.
Well that wasn't short at all sorry. I just wanted to know if anyone else had been through this with their work. It's a vicious cycle between the cirrhosis symptoms and depression/anxiety. I need this job to pay my mortgage but I'm worried so much about losing my job I can't concentrate on the work, which is the problem my work has π so yeah, just wondering if anyone else had torn their hair out over something similar?
WAKE UP!! π
Thanks for reading/listening,
Heather