Hi Everyone. I hope everyone is doing OK. I wrote a while back, saying that after 2 - 3 months of abstinence from alcohol, and bloods were beginning to improve, skin looking heaps better, feeling heaps better, that I had a relapse. This is definitely not an excuse, but Mum had recently passed away. If anything I fell gratefully back into the bottle, using Mum's passing as an excuse to drink again, all the whist knowing it was the worse thing I could do. Pathetic. I've only stopped drinking again, after drinking quite steadily for around 2 months. Has anyone had a serious relapse like this before? Have I totally destroyed my chances of going back from decompensated to compensated cirrhosis? I know this is my own fault, and I'm so angry and ashamed. Any help would be so appreciated. Thank you so much.
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Hi puddy , please don't feel ashamed whatsoever it can happen and still is happening to many of us battling the demon drink of alcohol .Back in 2008 I was end stage cirrhosis from alcohol, decompensated and very poorly ,took me a good 2 years to climb myself back to full health including weight gain etc , all was going well until my dad became poorly in 2011, he had lung cancer ,went through a big operation he did to remove his left lung I was at this stage my dad's full time carer and I stopped my little part time job, cut a long story short he passed away in 2012 , I was utterly heartbroken and I turned to the bottle so to speak, I hid myself away from everyone , went on a 2 year bender ,drinking g every day ,became alcohol dependant again , 2014 my tummy started swelling again, and instantly I knew it was the start of ascites so my GP referred me back to alcohol detox ( which i eventually managed to do myself) as I had some diazepam from my dr as I was suffering really bad anxiety and borderline agoraphobia
So yes , I went on a 2 years drinking binge and still came out of it in the end .
Wishing you all the very best going forward and again sorry for the sad loss of your mum x
No you haven’t blown your chances by your relapse as you’ve stopped again now. Don’t feel ashamed, I remember talking to my consultant when I was first diagnosed with cirrhosis and he said up to 70% of people relapse at some point in the first 5 years of abstinence. So it’s normal. Give yourself a break, be nice to yourself and try to forget it happened and put it down to experience.
Try to be kind to yourself. These things happen. The main thing is that you are picking yourself up, dusting yourself off, and putting your life back on track. Good for you.
Thank you so much, NieceByMarriage. Thank you so much for taking the time to reply to me, and for being so encouraging. God Bless.
hello and sorry for your troubles - very serious troubles that would make the vast majority of people seek comfort. Sadly, for people like us, our source of comfort is not a healthy one, but a very familiar and dependable one. So like others have replied it is no wonder you have had a lapse. But you recognise it for what it is and are reaching out - without that you cannot take the next steps. If you can leave the drink then your body can rest and start to recover. If you can find other ways to care for the parts of you that are hurting (compassionate ways) then you can hopefully create longer term safety for your recovery. It can be a long and lonely process, and things might not always makes sense, so finding external sources of support is important. But you can look after yourself (body AND soul) and get to a better stronger place.
And we are all here to cheer you on!
I'm a alcoholic with liver liver failure and may need a transplant. I haven't had a drink in 4 years and life is so much better. Sorry to hear about yr mum mate.
She wouldn't want you to drink again.
Life's better without a drink. You can do it x
After 4 years of no alcohol hasn't your liver improved? Or was there to much damage been done
Hi puddy I have said before on this site is like a journey down a road that has speed bumps and you have just hit one that put you off for a bit, but your back on it now and good for you. As it’s already been said I’m so sorry for your news but think your mum would not want you on the drink again. Lot’s of thoughts and love to you from the wife and I 💕💕keep up the good work 👍.
Stay safe All
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hi, we are not here to judge you just to help you, so sorry about your loss 🥲 you have not blown your chances you just simply had a relaps but you know u have done wrong and are trying again, your not the first and won’t be the last person to have turned back to drink but your still here and chose to try again, Rome my friend was not built in a day, one day at a time you can do it, stay strong and I wish you luck ❤️
So sorry to hear of your loss. I hope you can find it within you to stay off the booze but please be kind to yourself. Grief hits us all in different ways.
These things happen sometimes puddy. Just remember how many months you stayed off it, you did well mate and you can do it again 👍
sending you a massive hug🫂. You should be proud you stopped drinking, there are no rules and even though I am 5 years post transplant, the last couple of weeks were very triggering. You have had a slip, but you are on the way back. I have psychotherapy which really helps and good friends. You have got this, be kind to yourself🫂🙏
Think of alcohol as a poison...would you swallow bleach ??? No
So just don't put it to.your lips
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