Thanks to you all

[Faithfull]

Thanks for being a life line MYPOST yesterday . At that moment that the dr said what he did. I didn't feel elated I felt in front of all looking like I made it up and why have I put myself threw this hell in in shock I though think I've stepped out of a nightmare that's why I got every thing from 2015 when I stopped drinking the officially diagnosis was not that bad but two more put it to the cirrhosis and small ulsers I'm taking table lets for gastric as I get bad head and sick a lot over years .

I know it's my word against that dr and I no whatever the outcome it be twisted as of my mental health,

I know that me being ill worked to the ex I was and still am scared of everything as I don't no what's going on and even if I got everything wrong that you all would be happy and relived for me it be miracle but who knows .

I no my own body I no little no education but I I no I got a degree in addiction ,i got degree in looking after a child that was more in hospital than out he had rare skin desease

I agreed that all dermatologist could examine him ask me questions photos the size of the wall .of his blisters tonsils they pickled as the blisters never go into mouth he took dapsone and sulphaparidine ones for leprasy America had to send England the hospital. Paperwork as it was so rare '

Don't no why I put that bit of my life in I'm just saying that I was not putting his illness on and I'm not putting mine on I post when I see GP I told111last night as this is my life my body my mind I'm entitled to no who is right or wrong I already no the answer they say I heard it wrong no I never sorry everyone I got till Monday now that's if dr can fit me in

[carllovatt]

Sounds like you just need someone to talk to or talk at

[Faithfull in reply to carllovatt]

Yes I no