Well folks, I've gathered my thoughts, and yes, even though we'll probably never meet up, I've realised how close knit this community is, and how wonderful the people on here are so helpful, humble, and knowledgeable.
We all are bonded by one common goal, and supporting each other has helped many individuals along the way, myself included, sadly we've lost some good people along the way since I've become a member, who have struggled with this illness or condition, I'm unsure what word to use, and hopefully I've not upset anyone with the wording,
I don't have the expertise or the same medical knowledge as some folk on here, and I don't have the skills to get involved with these conversations, perhaps the days of drinking have affected my brain, but from years gone by, I never really paid attention to my own health then, and didn't have anyone in my life to care about me when in my darkest days, but that was then, so, I truly thank the forum, and you good people, take care, and hopefully I'll be saying I've cracked another 10 years with the 10 I've just completed, best wishes Chris 😇
Does that matter?
Your input for others to read, is brilliant. You probably don't even realise how many people you have influenced positively, just by posting your celebration of 10 years.
I understand you have other medical issues, but the Lingo does take some practice, but you shall always learn something. Also others from you, vice versa. That's important 👏
Does this mean you are leaving? If so, take care, stay positive and strong and conquer the neuropathy! Pop back if you are though, positive input is very needed indeedy. 🙂
No, I'm not leaving, perhaps I didn't explain myself properly 😊, I don't often post comments that often, we all know how difficult it is to approach this subject (alcohol) and it's a balancing act, I was merely trying to explain from my point of view that I'm not the sharpest tool in the box 🤣 when it's comes down to the medical side of things, as I didn't really care what happened to me when I was having treatment etc all those years ago.I even went back out drinking after I got discharged from hospital after another session of drinking!
So I have many crosses to bare, as so to speak, something of which I'm not proud of☹.
I've only started to find myself after all these years, not only as a person, but as an absent father 😢, and son.
I had to first sort my physical health out, along with many months of counselling for trauma related incidents, hence my years of alcoholic issues, its hard to explain, sometimes I suffer with survivors guilt, hence my PTSD,and I feel extremely lucky when I read how people on this forum look for advice, it takes me ages to think what I say, and if I say something wrong, then I feel really bad, does that make any sense???
This is why I struggle, its part of my past life that causes me problems, it's what has happened, and I'd hate to upset anyone, I can't help the way I am,
I'm truly grateful 🙏, and thankful I'm now back in touch with my family etc, non of this existed, I did a RUNNER, and basically nobody could find me, its been a roller coaster of a ride, so, that's just a small section if my hectic life, but staying sober is my priority, and will always be, Chris 🤗😇
You truly are inspirational, well done and big hugs to you, we aren't all in the know with all the medical where does and whys but I can relate to what you are saying and I think you will of also helped others who maybe would think twice before posting.what's on there minds or concerning them, Take care it's lovely to hear from you xx
Hi Tia2021, 👋 and thanks for your reply, yes, I suppose it might help in one respect if folk can see that we approach alcohol in different ways, there's no rule book as such to follow, we are all different, and it has its own problems along the way, and it's so difficult trying to explain everything in a way where we perhaps fail to get our point over, its never easy explaining everything in finite detail, and of course we forget things over the years gone by, we all aim to stay free from the demon brew,everyone has their own journey from this terrible addiction, its so hard for everyone concerned, and yet sometimes we as drinkers were in denial from the problems we had caused, sometimes I perhaps put things the wrong way around, and then I start getting into a panic mode, and I dread if I've caused anyone any problems, I try to read what I've typed and then reread it again, and again before I send it, what a nightmare, that's why I'm struggling sometimes, boy, no wonder I can't sleep, anyway enough of my ramblings, and once again thanks Chris 😇