I've posted on the C25K community as well, but I feel I can be more explicit here about the hatefulness of today's run
It should have been a good run and instead it was one of the worst runs I've ever experienced. I was well rested, fuelled and hydrated. So what happened? Dunno.
I think partly it's because Carsington just plain scares me. I'd planned a there-and-back-again run starting from the car park and knew roughly where I would end up. What I hadn't appreciated, and misswobble amongst others will back me up here, is that some hills are worse the other way round. When I was at Carsington the other week I ran this section clockwise. Today I started off anti-clockwise so there were some stonkers right at the beginning of my run. 'Never mind,' I thought, 'at least I'll be running down them on my way back.' Another problem with Carsington is that the surface can be quite ratty - it's gravelly shale in places, so on the hilly bits it can be hard work going up and flipping treacherous coming down.
I had mistakenly taken my inner 4-year-old with me today as well. At 3k I was bored. At 4k I was hungry and my knee was niggling. At 5k I stopped because it was the turn around and I needed a wee. I'd taken the shewee with me but it was far too busy with Other People - how very dare they? Fancy wanting to bird watch, dog walk, run, cycle or walk in the sunshine! So that was another annoyance all the way back.
The run back was dreadful. I walked up most of the hills. I plodded on the straight bits. I was almost in tears on one section, in the hot sun, as I was wondering how I was going to manage Chatsworth in three weeks time. I just couldn't work out why I was finding it so hard. In the end I stopped worrying about it and concentrated on running where I could, walking on the difficult bits and just getting back to the car.
My time was an appalling 1.28. Okay, some of that was stopped (the Garmin looks as though I have died several times) and some of it was walking.
Thinking about it, it was mostly mental. Yes, there were physical niggles. But I set off thinking that 10k is a big jump from 8k, and worrying about the hills, and not liking the surface, and setting a longer time for this run 'because you're not as fit as last time' - and I basically scuppered my run in my head before I even started my warm-up walk.
On the whole, I don't like runs where you have to turn around and run back again. I much prefer loops or straight lines. So for my next planned 10k (Sunday), I shall go and do the one where I did my first 10k. It is all downhill and it has a loo halfway down and it ends up at my doorstep, near enough. That's planning for success.