On Monday 21st Jan I was 50 and it was also the day I went to hospital for the results after my mastectomy. I had already been through 7 very hard neo-adjuvant chemotherapy sessions up until Dec last year and op on 2/1/19.
My consultant told me that my histology results showed no cancer left in the breast tissue or in the lymph nodes taken (ANC). I just sat there serious, my Dad and friend were smiling away with the consultant and I didn't seem to know how to react? Was this good I asked? Yes consultant said excellent results couldn't ask for anything better so why then do I feel down? Of course I am happy as they say cancer gone but I am scared, worried, wondering what if?? Is this how it is now? How do I move on from this now, just feel like all I am doing now is wondering if it will come back, noone is checking me anymore, no hospital all the time, where do I go now??
I don't want to seem ungrateful as it is good news but just wonder why I feel as I do. Any help, tips, thoughts welcome xx