Hello everyone. I was just looking back and noticed it is 5 years since I first posted up in this forum. Yesterday I had to attend the pancreatic clinic. I actually got to see the consultant himself. The small 'fatty' mass (as a gp passed it off as) now has to be investigated and I have to undergo both an endoscopy and a biopsy. Should this prove to be cancerous, then it is small enough to be dealt with. Next week, I get the results from my CT scan on my lungs. This is the second scan in 2 months to see if there is any change to the 'spots' they found 2 months ago. Fingers crossed they are merely scars from pneumonia and/or the radiotherapy I had last time round. Since I last chatted to you all, besides the sea swimming, crafting, reading and writing poetry, I have taken up cycling (an e-bike of course as my dodgy bones would not manage a totally manual bike) growing my own herbs, making pesto and salad dressings and growing plants in a mini greenhouse. I meditate and basically enjoy living. A positive outlook and living in the here and now has served me well, and I hope it does for years to come. I hope, among all the chaos, fear, ill health and general shizz storm that cancer brings, that you are all managing to find 'you', a sense of peace and the chance to live for the moment. As we have all experienced, none of us knows what is around the corner. Enjoy your day everyone, and when feeling low, try to find just one thing to smile about. It really does give you a little lift. Sending positivity and love to you all.