I already have three children & three step children with my partner. Both of our older children have autism & mine also has life long rare health problems. The six children combined are all under the age of 13.
The relationship has problems, I am a victim of child sexual abuse with a very recent conviction, I tried to kill myself two years ago & very nearly succeeded.
I tried to leave him a few weeks ago, packing everything up & running miles away as I felt overwhelmed by a division he seems to create within our blended family...during this time he begged to sort stuff/meet up (my pills were packed away in storage) we had sex & now I am 4/5wks pregnant living back with him & have since been in hospital the whole time with my eldest son & poor health.
I was suicidal again leading up to discovering I was pregnant, was on a waiting list for psychiatric intervention.
He wants an abortion, he has said he'll support whatever, but hasn't leave me be until I finally said today I will have an abortion. I don't want one. I had to abort a baby in a previous relationship due to mistake by a doctor, where I was given a live vaccination. I feel safe knowing I am pregnant, I am scared if I abort I will try & harm myself.