4.15 am What the hell am I doing wide awake! It is very dark out there matches my mood! Have been up about 1 hour and I don't know why because I am really tired but I can't switch my brain off.
Bit stupid because I have actually been feeling quite good the last few days. I had a lovely conversation with my doctor on Monday when she phoned me to ask if I needed anything because get this - I haven't had to ask for antibiotics or steroids for 4 months! I actually hadn't realised how long it had been since my last bout obviously my new regime is really working and I walked down to the corner of my road with a friend. So why has my mood changed so suddenly I wish I could make sense of me!!
I know I am so much luckier than a lot of you on here, I have family, friends, a home and no money worries so I have so much I should be celebrating so why can't I?
So sorry my sense of humour has sort of disappeared but I am going to send out a search party and hopefully I will have found it by normal waking up time.