Hi all, I have cad and unstable angina, I was diagnosed 18 months ago. I'm on the usual meds statins, calcium channel blockers, beta blockers, aspirin and, my gtn spray which I can't do without... I feel I was diagnosed, which was a shock and then left to fend for myself, I feel alone in all this, I have other symptoms and take other med for my stomach, osteoarthritis and anxiety and depression. I cannot walk much now and get out of breath easily and suffer from heart palpitations, the angina attacks come on with no warnings, I'm not exerting myself I can be quite still and they come on, iv been to hospital a few, times when my spray didn't work, where I thought I was going to die, the pain was very bad. Every day I worry about the attacks, but, try to carry on. For instance last night I woke up shouting with pain I couldn't move the osteoarthritis in my foot was so painful, i have pain meds and water by my bed, so took them and just kept crying out and moaning until the meds made me sleep. Then I have the angina waking me up, which is horrible and frightening, I don't want to wake my children up, so I sit up take my spray and just hope it works, if I av to take the second lot, I'm already thinking about what to do next, recently I my spray worked on the third lot of sprays, did I feel scared. Iv been waiting to see my cardiologist for ages now must be a year.... The doc chased 3 times now covid they cancelled appointments. I don't like the docs or going to hosp and I know I should chase them. I know I am worse, I can't walk I shuffle after abit. Is it me or are we left alone? Or have I had bad luck with my cardiologists I'm in Shropshire. I don't sleep much and I fight depression every single day, if I let up it does overcome me, it does wear you out fighting the depression, I do succumb....... Iv only been fighting it for two days now, its constant my mind is full of everything, my chest is tight as usual, does anyone else feel like this?? I'm a 57 year old woman with older teenagers. My life and my plans which I have studied for a long time are ruined now because I know I haven't the energy or health to do the job I wanted to do, it's very disheartening and I'm wasting my life in my bedroom but still trying to care for others.
I know it's a long post. Thank you for reading it, if you stayed with me, lol take care xxx