Hi Somewhere,
I had a cardiac arrest in 2011, spent 4 weeks in a coma in ICU, finally decided to wake up and breathe for myself .... and haven't looked back since! All true, except for the last bit. The question 'why me?' is still something I ask myself. I answer myself by thinking that I was exceptionally fortunate and that I owe it to my family to make the most of my life. I slept for a month, they went through hell! I now live by the mantra 'Do it while you can!'. This includes doing things for me and for others, whether this be within our local community or, more formally, taking on a volunteering role.
As each Bonus Year goes by I reflect on how fortunate I was that someone who had just been on a First Aid course was passing when I collapsed. He gave me CPR until the ambulance arrived. I have no explanation as to 'why me?'. I am not religious but do feel that I can repay the debt I feel by supporting good causes and living the life I was given to the full. My suggestion to you is to reflect on what happened but also look to your future life in a positive way. To me this is the best way to say thankyou to all the people who were involved in saving your life.
It is, relatively, easy for me to write in this way after so many years. You are probably still feeling quite raw and vulnerable. Just give it time and take each day as it comes.
I hope this helps in some small way.