Well it’s been an interesting few days after having a fair bit of pain last weekend in my chest shoulders and neck I was left with just the pain from the back of my left ear down my neck whi hope felt like it was following a vein .......... so on Monday I phoned my local hospitals Acute Medical Unit who said because of my blood clot any symptons that concerned me I was to phone them immediately and they would bring me in and I was worried that the clot had moved and they said come straight in. They did blood tests, a chest X Ray because of my cough examined my legs and did a doplar scan on my left leg and examined my neck . The conclusion after I was there for 5 hours was that it was muscular ...........all my bloods were all normal my chest X Ray was clear, my doplar showed the clot was fading away but was still there so all was good . I wonder if us hearties sometimes add 2 + 2 and get 5 and I wonder if we become paranoid that everything that happens with our bodies is heart related. I apologised to the nursing staff and the doctor for wasting their time obviously they said it’s good that you got the all clear and better to be safe than sorry I just felt that I’d been paranoid and over reacted.
I woke up on Tuesday went to have my daily injection for the blood clot then decided to get on with my life again so I went shopping treated myself to some new jeans and a jacket had lunch then went home got changed and went walking in the sunshine and managed to do 5 miles at a brisk pace and it felt great !! I have been walking everyday this week and have managed to do the walk in a quicker time each day I have had sweat on my brow but havent felt scared or worried about my new valve which up and till Tuesday i have been and I’ve realised I’ve been over protective of my body, I suppose I’ve lacked confidence. The last four days have been fantastic I’m sleeping better I’m mentally stronger more relaxed and I’m laughing and joking with friends more as not everything in my mind every second of the day is about my valve which for the last 5 weeks it has been. I really feel like I’ve turned a corner and have come to terms with what has happened and found a way in my head of compartmentalising the different aspects of my life going forward so not everything is about my AVR as it can become all consuming and isolating ................. so people don’t let it .............. accept it don’t do anything stupid to undo the great work your surgeons done but ............. get on with your life don’t stagnate ................. otherwise you’ll become one of those people who lived and planned there life to do everything in retirement but then when retirement arrives they realise they’ve not lived and now it’s too late to do the things they should have done years ago.
Nothing is perfect and I may wake up tomorrow with other issues but for now I’m enjoying being me again and I haven’t felt like that in weeks
Have a great weekend everybody