I recently tried a medicine to help slow down my racing mind and it worked but it made me gain fifty pounds. I managed to lose about ten of it but now don’t want anyone who hasn’t seen me to see me like this. When I see myself in pictures or store cameras I want to die. I have tried diets and don’t eat much as is. I also hurt my rotator cuff so am limited on the gym. I have a wedding to go to in a month and can’t get out of it because I introduced them and they are both health fanatics. 
Isolation: I recently tried a medicine to... - Beyond Body Size
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I totally understand. I used to be thin, and so it shocking and shaming to see myself in pictures or mirrors. It's an awful feeling, I know. But we need to remember we are more than our bodies. There are beautiful hearts, and minds there too. And others who care about us see that in addition to our physical selves. Good luck at the wedding.....
In not a big carb or dessert person luckily.
Uggg, I am so sorry. I have been normal weight, under, over, and now I am normal, I guess average is a better way to put it. I've overcome many, many issues, and one that I really don't ever see leaving me is my self-esteem being linked to my body weight and size. The only difference in me being at an average weight this time in my life, is I did it in a healthy way. I exercise, eat "somewhat" well, but mostly don't eat fast food, etc. But I know deep down that if I gain 5 lbs I will flip out and "diet" for a week, when I am actually gaining muscle. I am 5'4 and around 120 and I was (seriously) going to meet with Sonobello so I could get my stomach made to look smaller. I really had to look at myself (not literally) and ask if I, and this weight and size was going to take a risk, (I was even thinking lipo) to my health to have a smaller stomach, and I could find a doctor that would do it (which I could) I would be supporting this ridiciliousness "we all need to be a size 2" culture. I look at my friends who are size 10 or more and NEVER once think once that they are less because they are large. Which I may remind some of you (mostly me) that the average size of the US woman is a size 10 at least. How do we fix it? It started way back in my family on my maternal side. There was a traveling salesman, brown leather case and all, (that long ago) who sold my late female ancestor "diet pills." She put then on the shelf and a few months after forgetting them, she noticed they started "hatching." Yes, they were worms, worms that would hatch in your stomach and starve you as they would eat the food you ate. I mean really???????? I think that is as crazy as me trying to get lipo.
