Just ugh

[Blugirl76]

I am 46 and lost both my parents by age 11. I spent the rest of my young life till 18 jumping from foster home to foster home, group homes, and even 2 hospitals. I have been through so much loss and grief. My maternal grandmother passed away 2 years ago and I really didn’t cry much but idk maybe I’m starting to really feel the grief of all of it. Not to mention the abandonment issues the loss has caused.

[Nathalie99]

Hi Bluegirl,

I am sorry to hear about the loss of your grandmother and what you have been through as a child. It is traumatic.

Was your grandmother a safe person in your life?

Sometimes with grief it can feel numb inside. Maybe it's hard to process, too much to face.

Whenever you feel you can face it, when you are stronger, the tears will come...

I'm so sorry about abandonment issues. This is another very important subject.

Would it be at all helpful to talk to a grief counsellor and a trauma therapist?

I understand if it's not...

[Sepsur]

grief isn’t often experienced in the way it is portrayed in the movies - I’m sure you know that better than most. I’m never ‘cured’ of mine nor do I get over it - I live with it and it slowly alters but it never leaves.