Dad

[maemae86]

Hello all.

I am struggling at the moment as my Dad died to covid 19 in April.

I have reached out for specialist help, but I am hoping to find some comfort here too.

Thinking of you all as you battle through your own journies x

[Greyone]

Hi maemae86 and welcome to this place. I am sorry for your loss and extra sorry for losing him to covid. Despite being one of many, He is still special, your dad and mourned by us all here as well.

I hope that while you have been waiting for specialist help you have been comforted by and shared your grief with a few others around you who grief as well. I feel reassured that you speak in such a quiet and measured way and hope that while you patiently wait you have some good memories to comfort you.

Here you'll find others that have a very unique journey with many common feelings and a desire for long term peace. I hope this comes to you soon as well.

Do feel free to come back any time to share your journey with us as other will do with you soon. Good luck.

[chloe40 Administrator]

Hello maemae86

Welcome to our Community.

My thoughts and love are with you.

Such an awful way to lose your Dad, the shock of the situation itself must seem surreal {{{hugs}}}.

I'm not sure if you were even allowed to say your goodbyes from I've read and that brings its own problems. Have you been allowed to hold a funeral ? You must have so many unanswered questions Mae.

I can't imagine how totally lost you must be feeling but I'm pleased you have found us here and l want you to know that you are always welcome.

We have a wonderfully warm group of members who are always willing to answer posts, so please do just pop in whenever you wish. It helps enormously to chat to others, that's what we are here for xx

Chloe<3

[maemae86 in reply to chloe40]

Lovely message thank you @chloe40

Dad was very ill here for a week and I nursed him before he then went into hospital where we weren’t allowed to go in.

We didn’t get to say goodbye and that has been tremendously difficult.

When we buried my dad, we were only allowed 12 people there. I have 3 brothers and couldn’t comfort (or receive comfort) them or their wives.

I have been binge drinking which has resulted in me lashing out and becoming more and more isolated and finding even daily life so hard.

I already feel reassured by your support and messages and having somewhere to express myself.

I am here for you all too xx

[chloe40 Administrator in reply to maemae86]

Hello Mae,

Your Dad's loss is such a shock to you that you haven't been able to process what happened or indeed why it happened at all.

You're coping in the only way you found you could, to try and drown out the pain and sorrow inside you and I completely understand that. You're angry, resentful and have every right to be so, but what you'll need is another way of coming to terms with this horror, because you need to channel this pain in another way and I hope that is what professional help will help you to do.

I do hope that you have been given the right support to help you unravel the feelings within you Mae but rest assured we're here always here and I'm so pleased you feel a little comfort knowing that.

Take good care of yourself, you're a loving daughter who has just lost her Dad, and needs some gentle care and attention herself<3

Chloe <3

[klr31]

So sorry for your loss.

I lost my dad a year ago in May. It's still difficult but more to do with the manner of his death and how difficult the years preceding it were.

Take care of yourself.

Karen x