I was diagnosed with herpes on Friday and I am really struggling to come to terms with it. I was so surprised as I honestly thought I had Psoriasis and didn't give a thought about an STD as I have only been getting the itchy bumps and blisters at the top of my bum. I have been with my husband for 9 years, who has been absolutely fantastic. We both know we have been faithful and have accepted the disease could have came from either of us and it's something we just have to accept and move on.
Except I'm not moving on or handling it very well at all. The outbreak area is the largest it's ever been, this being about my 3rd outbreak in a year, I keep bursting into tears and panicking. I know I need to get a grip.
My Dr isn't the best, he made a few patronising faces, prescribed me Aciclovir (800mg tablets which I'm convinced are far too strong after reading the leaflet) and told me not to take them this as he said it's too late but to keep the tablets for future outbreaks.
I've started taking them today as I'm about two weeks into this outbreak and constantly itchy, no pain. I've went and bought Epsom salts and Aloe Vera gel to try and curb this as I feel it's spreading more and more. I feel so dirty and hopeless and I'm paranoid every itch below my waist is another outbreak happening. I just can't get it into my head I have herpes, I've never had a cold sore, never had anything other than the odd bout of thrush down there. The constant itching and ugliness of the blisters keep reminding me what a horrible person I am.
I just want to feel better about myself......