bother, realised I haven't asked this very well. Sorry to the two lovely ladies who already answered, but I meant that I have realised I didn't feel love BEFORE I became unwell, and don't seem to have felt anything much at all really. And because that's how it was all the time, I didn't know any different. Its not until I had the PN problems and started to recover that I began to feel things as a sensation in my body, rather than just sort of 'knowing' occasionally what I was feeling. Does that make sense?