I've posted a few times on here, but not for a while. I had ppp in 2013 after the birth of my beautiful baby girl. I was 37 yrs at the time and she is my only baby.
I was sectioned 3 months after the birth & taken to a psychiatric hospital were I stayed for 4 weeks. Missing her 1st Christmas : ( I was put on antidepressants & antipsycotics. I also had 4 treatments of ECT. With a great deal of support I made a full recovery and went on to get a job and carry on a 'normal' life. With regular check ups with my mental health nurse & my G.p, I was able to come off all my meds 2 yrs later.
In 2018 I had a massive dip. I had terrible mood swings, hot sweats & no periods for 6 months. I was always regular, so I knew something funny was going on. I went to my G.p & she did a few tests & realised I may be going through the perimenopause. I was put on the marina coil & given hrt patches. The hrt was because I was only 42 & that is said to be early to start the beginning of menopause. In 2019 I suffered another set back. I felt massively overwhelmed, couldn't comprehend what was happening around me & felt hugely detached from reality. It was a scary time as my girl was 5/6 yrs old & I did NOT want her to see me like I was after her birth. I was SO scared I was going to end up in a psychiatric hospital again. I went back to my G.p & she put me back on sertraline. I had help from my local mental health team & with some time out & professional help, I got through it. The feelings I suffered, although they were scary, they werent as bad as in 2013. I also felt a massive wave of depression & anxiety. I got paranoid about going outside & had to cancel social events as was just totally overwhelmed & detached. I did however get over it in a couple of months. Had some time off work & tried to relax more. Ever since 2019 episode, I have had a couple more similar episodes. The last one was just 1 month ago. All similar feelings, detached from reality, really depressed & massively anxious. I'm still currently on 100mg sertraline, 75mg hrt patch & since spring this year, I'm also on 25mg quitapine (anti psychotic) to calm my brain down. I have just turned a corner over the last few days & feel like me again. Unfortunately during my last set back, my Mum passed away. She was ill for a while & although it's sad, it's a blessing really as she's not in pain anymore. It's her funeral on Friday so I'm sure after that I may start to feel some closure. I'm really sorry for the HUGE message, but I wanted to reach out to see if anyone one here suffered any sets backs during their menopause years? Thank you for listening & sorry it's so long, take care, love & wishes Anna xx