I am in tears here i feel i cant talk about my experience and hi have some fear around what if the Psychosis comes back again..
I was diagnosed with severe Post Natal Depression and Post partum Psychosis with other behaviours i had a few relaspses. One of the hardest thing i had ever to go through but now i am 3 years in my recovery journey i have only started talking about Psychosis i am scared to say i had as i dont want other mums or people to think this could happen them all i want is to make people aware that if you let things go it can get worst..
My PND started before i had 4th boy it started with my first boy who was 8 i was first of all worried about giving birth i only got 1 counselling session then i was informed oh your Ok you will not need anymore now i know you need more than one session.. The birth was traumatic as first baby i felt so guilty for a long time after the birth then pregnant 2 time when my first was only 6 months moved house pregnant with 3rd another traumatic birth 3rd degree tear then last Birth emergency C section it was about May or evn before that symptoms where getting bad i wanted to end my marriage i wasnt sleeping i was scared all the time...
The hardest decision i had to make was to give up breastfeeding out of the 4 of them who i breastfed i felt that i really bonded with him but i didnt know what else to do it still hurts at times ..
I am from Northern Ireland and got involved with acharity Support 2 gether they saved me and my family ..
There is not a lot of services here in Northern Ireland for perinatal and post natal depression..
i know it was 3 years ago but i came across your information the other night it would be just nice to link up with somebody to talk about it .. sorry for the long post