Hi all. Not sure if this is the best place to post however, I’m at a real loss at the moment. Prior to explaining my situation I want to say that I am due to see a psychiatrist and have been to my GP.
I am a mum to three with my most recent birth being 6 weeks ago. I have never been diagnosed with PP however, I have a history of obsessive intrusive thoughts around my children being swapped. I’ve had CBT sessions which helped me manage the thoughts. I’ve never been depressed but felt overwhelming/severe anxiety/OCD/derealisation which rendered me bed ridden with my first.
I was well with my second with no relapse. I am now experiencing intrusive thoughts around feeling like I can’t recognise my second child and that he is not my son despite him being my absolute world. In my heart I know this is intrusive/irrational but at times it feels real. I keep wondering if I am high functioning psychotic because I am able to carry on as normal but I am having delusional thoughts.
I know I shouldn’t seek reassurance but I just want to get a heads up on what’s going on with my mind. It’s absolutely exhausting.
Please help a very exhausted and sad mummy! 😥