I’m new to the forum and new to the illness. I have been struggling with my mental health since February when my second baby was born. I haven’t told anyone about this until recently and struggled on my own. This led to me feeling isolated and scared.
I started to feel depressed soon after the birth but thought I would be able to get over it as I had with my first baby. However, I started to feel more and more depressed and had intrusive thoughts.
I then began to hear voices telling me I am a rubbish mum and my children will be taken away. The voices also told me my husband is evil and I shouldn’t be with him.
This all became even worse last week when I had a crisis. I called the police and told them I wasn’t safe. I made false allegations against my husband (which I believed to be true at the time). These included that he had been violent and searching awful things online (not true).
Anyway, my husband was released and I told him everything. I have since been to my go and referred to the perinatal mental health team.
However, I’ve now had a phone call from children’s services and they want to come to my house. I’m absolutely terrified. I’m obviously still vulnerable and have little to no memory about anything that happened whilst I was in crisis and don’t want to say something. I don’t feel mentally well enough to speak to them on my own. And I’m so worried that my voices were right all this time.
Does anyone else have a similar experience?
A scared mummy xxx