Hello... it’s been a while since I started my own thread on here. I wonder if I could use the forum as a bit of a sounding board? I’d love to chat with others who are perhaps going through similar.
Our son is now 5, and happily settled into school (!). We have come so far as a family, given the horrendous start we had, but still... We would love another child. It’s something we always envisioned when we had our son, that he would have sibling(s). And as our son has grown he talks about wanting a little brother (or a sister, but preferably a brother!) often. We’ve always explained to him that we would love that too, and we are trying, but it’s not something that can happen overnight!
Secondary infertility has been my companion for the last four years (we started trying again when our son was 1). We’ve explored various fertility treatments, but what we are looking at now is possible adoption. There is so much to consider, and of course no guarantees we would be approved and then matched successfully.
I attended an interesting information session with one local council, and then made enquiries about starting the process with them. We had to do a lengthy telephone interview with them, before they would even send the initial application form. Fair enough. So we sat and spoke to the social worker for a good half hour, answering all her questions about ourselves, our history, our wishes and our home.
I’ve never felt any stigma around my postpartum psychosis before. I’ve been very lucky - and very “open” about it all. But explaining to the social worker about my illness, my subsequent bipolar disorder diagnosis, and the MBU stay, I could hear her intake of breath on the other end of the line. She sounded shocked. And I could tell right away we weren’t going to hear back from them. (Two weeks on and still no form has arrived).
I wasn’t prepared for the reaction, I guess, but hopefully I’ll be able to find someone to take us on. It’s certainly not something I could ever hide. And actually I think my illness has given me a lot of empathy and insight into mental health in general, and hopefully would mean I could support a child who may have their own mental health problems as they grow up? I don’t know. I guess I just need some moral support for what might be a really difficult (and triggering?) process.
Thanks for reading