Hi I've written on here before. I'm 3 months into my recovery and I'm finding things really tough. My anxiety levels are at an all time high. I'm starting to feel paranoid again.
I'm finding things I used to be able to do so difficult like motivating myself to feed the baby and bathing my other 3 boys and taking them to school. I'm doing it all but I'm so bloody exhausted with my meds.
Also being at home with the baby all day is tough too. I don't know how to play with him anymore and it's upsetting me. I think I'm having a bit of a blip. We go on holiday in two weeks and I'm worried I'm going to let everyone down. My medication is making me feel so tired and heavy but I need it for my recovery. Any one else that has been through similar I would greatly appreciate any advice on how to deal with this xx ps I'm on mirtazapine anti depressant and rispiridone anti psychotic. I'm also feeling paranoid in situations that I really shouldn't. I don't want to increase my meds. My mum and dad have told me to fight these feelings but I'm not finding it easy at all. Plus I'm annoyed with them as fighting it suggests that it's just a bit of nothing. I might ring my nurses up in the morning and see if I can go and see my psychiatrist again. Any advice is appreciated xx