I just wanted to tell you that it is possible to have another child without relapse.
When my daughter was born back in December 2008, I started to be ill straight after giving birth and was put in a psychiatric 5 days later and stayed there for 1 month. I felt very depressed as the psychosis eased up. I didn't sought help for depression as I was worried about being put back in hospital and having to leave my daughter behind.
I got better but it took me a year to feel like myself again.
In September 2010, as I was feeling pretty good and was stating to plan a new child, my brother in law committed suicide. I didn't knew him well but during the depression that followed the psychosis, I had very strong feelings of hurting myself and had thought about suicide. The griminess of the wake (a full Irish wake with the dead person in the house for 3 days), the sorrow of the family.... A lot of stressful factors which made me unwell again. I had a second episode of psychosis and had to be hospitalised.
When I got pregnant again in 2012, I was very worried about PPP. I knew that having got sick with psychosis a second time upped my chances of getting sick again once my second child would arrive. To prevent this I put a lot of things in place. I did mindfulness with a psychologist I got my psychiatrist and my obstetrician to get a plan of action together. My husband was authorised to stay with me at nights after birth so I could sleep and not start a pattern of insomnia. And I got on medication ,300g quitiapine, straight after birth.
And I didn't get sick. My son and daughter are well and so are me and my husband. I count my blessings and wish to anyone planning another child the same luck.
Thank you for the support of this forum, it is very helpful.