I can't get it out of my mind what happened at the birth of my son 16 months ago. I had a retained planeta and he had low blood sugar level, low temperature and jandice. I keep on wishing I could do it all again and feel sad when I see someone pregnant as I know I will never be pregnant again. I have had cbt with helped for about a week but then the thoughts kept on coming back. Does anyone else feel like this?