I've felt lots better in that I havent had any psychotic thoughts and my psychatrist is happy for me to come off my medication slowly, which I am and their plan is to be off inlt in 3 weeks. The only problem is now I feel down, emotional and weepy all the time, it feels like there's a big black cloud that wont lift, I cant wait until my baby is older and easier (she's my third) but it feels an endless struggle until were there. My partner went back to work for a few hours for a couple of days because we needed the money and I felt anxious, down and cried a lot. We've since been told we're entitled to some help so he has stopped working again. I still feel just as scared, weepy and anxious, also irritable constantly, knowing he will go back one day. I feel sometimes like I wish my baby would never wake up again so I could have my old life with just my two children again, I also wish sometimes that I wouldn't wake up again. Every morning I wake up and cry because its the start of a long day. I didn't expect this, I thought once the psychosis was over, I would be fine, did anyone else feel the same?