I had a severe episode of PPP followed by depression when my child was born. It has taken almost three years to get over it but I still find myself wishing that I could have a second child. My partner doesn't fearing that I couldn't cope and I know deep down I would probably struggle but feel defective and sad in the company of happily pregnant friends. I am grateful for my child but feel incomplete and haven't managed to move on from this heaviness. Does anyone else out there understand? Not sure where to go from here; have moved away from mental health services but may need counselling again? Confused..