So, I just got out of the ER and was diagnosed with simple depression, but I know its more than that. I have breaks from reality where I think nothing is real, and that I imagined everything. When I don't feel that way, I feel euphoric that I'm "all better". I am currently on Sertraline 50 mg. I have my first psych appointment tomorrow and I believe I need to be admitted. I am terrified to be around my babies (5 weeks and 22 months) I just want to feel better and know that everything is real again. I don't even think the medications or doctors are real when I experience those feelings. This was all triggered from seeing (or thinking I saw) my ceiling fan move at one week postpartum, and since then it has been a downhill struggle. I admitted myself into the ER, fearing for my own life and my family's. Will I get better? I am so scared and just want to feel normal and happy again.
Another issue is that I am breastfeeding and there is no MBU around me. I don't know where one is either. I can't imagine being away from my baby so long.