We just got home last Thursday from the mother and baby unit … I did terrible things in psychosis for sections called the police on my fiancé kicked him and his mother out got sectioned was separated from baby tried to kill mylsef in section ( they didn’t find out iPhone cables are not that handy turns out ) destroyed personal property of my fiancé althe list goes on oh yes went on instagram and a Facebook …. I am still so ashamed and whenever he wants to process what hallend i feel like he’s shaming me . I got sectioned on the 5 th oct which was also my 50 th bday and my daughter was 1 week . And he hasn’t even written me a card I feel like I am being punished but that’s not the worse I wanted this baby so badly and I feel like a failure as I couldn’t do the most natural thing in the world namely give birth without making a big scandal … in my 20 I was partying a lot and doing drugs etc and I know many of my peers think that I literally gave birth and got high and that I don’t care of the baby . But that’s not true . I became psychotic from lack of sleep ….