Hi there, I am new to this site and already loving the sharing of stories and info. What an awesome resource. I have a two year old daughter and suffered PPS for the month or so after delivery ( officially un diagnosed - although I suspected it was as I could identify many of my symptoms were similar to those my brother with bi polar suffered this only made me more paranoid and anxious though ! - tried to be open as possible with symptoms with my doctor but probably half back on answering do I have delusions or hallucinations because I had many religious/ spiritual experiences but to me they were 100% real and I new doctor wouldn't understand them! I was prescribed sleeping pills two weeks in which were my saving grace as I found with a couple of nights proper sleep everything settled and felt more controlled and manageable. guess I suffered psp for the following month or so but it was overall an elevated feeling of bliss and connection with the world without the terrible paranoia and gripping fear I had experienced.
My husband and I throw around the idea of having another child. Some days I get super excited about the idea and find myself jumping ahead thinking of names, (no we are not pregnant or even trying) but on other days I am paralysed by fear and think "no way" can I get through this again. For me my world falls apart if I don't get my sleep and so I'm not only worried about PpS recurring but how I'll cope with the demands of another wee person taxing my energy levels sleep etc over their childhood. I'm trying to weigh up whether I'm a better mum at one or whether I can cope with another with the right support around me. It has always been my life mission to be a mum- I'm not sure I'll feel satisfied at one,. I've decided that to even know if I want another child I first need to know that I am not basing my decision on fear of psp Recurring. I think I would always regret this if it was fear based? So I met with my doctor today- before a conscious decision on weather to get pregnant or not again I said I need to speak with a psychiatrist in the Area who can help me with an action plan for meds depending on different scenarios that may come up (psychosis/ depression/ sleep aids etc) one of the things that really threw me into fear last time as I could not get my head around breastfeeding (which I was absolutely fixated and besotted about doing) and taking mediPcation. I did to see how they could marry up and thus it felt more important for me to breastfeed than medicate although by sleeping pills and "expressing and dumping milk" for a few nights I could get my head around it and thankfully was enough to get me through the worst of my psychosis that seemed to be fed by sleep deprivation.
So my questions are
1. If I needed antipsychotic med what are peoples experiences can you breastfeed alongside. If not and I needed them then I need to get my head around not breastfeeding.
2. Anyone in or has been in a similar space re having another baby ? And thoughts...
3. Any other action plan tips. I see a few people mentioned Ian jones? Who is he and did he post tips on here?
Many thanks for yur help