Anxiety and screwed up thoughts ! Like terrified of cheating etc

[Jmerrick22]

I really don’t know what is causing this, but I am so terrified I’m gonna end up cheating on my significant other I can’t take it! I never would, I love her to death, and I’d love to be married to her someday. But why the hell does our brains make us think like this ?!?! I’m not even worried about her cheating, it’s I’m worried about myself. I literally deleted numbers from my phone and Facebook just so I don’t talk to people because I’m afraid I’m gonna cheat even though I would never and ever want to hurt her. The only thing I’ve done is self pleasured in front of a friend. Not really intentionally but he walked in on me and watched a few minutes. It was beyond the point of stopping myself from ya know... how and I keep feeling like this is cheating. I can’t stop thinking. She lives an hour away from me and we see each other maybe once every week or week and a half. Can this be causing me anxiety? Any advice please!

[Fumble]

At the start of relationships I always get paranoid wondering what people could possibly see in me. Then I start worrying about how I am going to stuff it up and if I'm good enough. I think it's our low self image triggering our anxiety.

You are not going to cheat.

Worrying about it though will stop you from fully enjoying your relationship

Talk to your therapist about it

So pleased you've found someone

Be kind to yourself

[SirGrits]

Hey bro, I agree with Fumble. You're overthinking, which comes natural to us "anxietyites". Try and forgive yourself and talk to your therapist.

Hang in there bro.