progress not perfection

[Ajrea2]

Hey everyone! I have health anxiety and panic disorder and have been dealing with this for 12 years. During this time I also was involved in a highly toxic relationship where I was a victim of domestic violence. Not only was he physically abusive he was extremely emotionally abusive. Just when i thought it couldn't get any worse he ended up sexually abusing me. He ended up serving two years in prison and I stayed with him. I was so sick! All the confidence and love i had for myself was gone and I actually believed I didn't deserve ant better. So I started drinking. I just wanted to escape. I didn't want to feel and I wanted to get out of my own head. Having a couple drinks while I was out with the girls turned into binge drinking, drinking alone, and hiding alcohol. I was a shell of a person. I knew I had a problem, but I didn't want to change. When i wasn't intoxicated I was a ball of anxiety. I lived in fear all day every day. I was constantly going to the doctors because I didn't know what was going on with me. They always chalked it up to be just anxiety, but in my head I really thought I had some serious health conditions. Fast forward to now.. I'm in recovery and the healing process is in full effect! With a lot of hard work and patience I'm getting my life back. I'm learning to love myself again. I no longer run from my anxiety. I have tools in place for when I start feeling depressed or anxious. I want everyone to know that they can get their life back and lead amazing full lives! You don't have to be a prisoner of your past!! YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE ENOUGH

[Jeff1943]

I think it's amazing how you are turning your life round for the better, Ajrea2, and have broken free from the thug who mistreated you so. You are discovering strengths and willpower you maybe thought you never had and I am certain these things will in time carry you forward to complete recovery. Thanks for sharing, you are an example to all of what can be achieved. Nice hand writing too!

[Ajrea2 in reply to Jeff1943]

thank you very much.

[Agora1]

Love your story Ajrea2, Thank you for sharing in allowing others to know with hard work, we can go forward and love who we are once more. xx

[Ajrea2 in reply to Agora1]

thank you. it's when you can tell your story wif your crying that's when you can tell you healed.