Turn for the worse...

[shrs3]

About an hour ago, I started thinking "what if im trapped in a dream right now", "what if im having delusions" . I was listening to my brothers music and it had a beeping sound that sounds like the machines you get hooked up to at the hospital and i was like omg what of im at the hospital right now but im stuck in a dream theyre trying to get me out of and I cant. I know these arent true, but my mind is having a hard time believing this. I need help but i dont want to be going crazy, but i feel like im dying. I took a couple xanax to calm down. Helping mildly.

[Anxieteelondin]

I have had really bad bouts of derealisation, and they're scary and uncomfortable thoughts and feelings. but i nowadays find some form of comfort in DR. Just notice your surroundings name everything you see around you, slowly. Start by telling yourself what the object is touch it, describe it, feel it if you can. Make yourself super ware of what is around you in the present moment. If that isn't working try to just put a movie or youtube or something on to distract you and focus on that. Its not easy but just notice that you're fusing with these thoughts and that these thoughts are merely words you choose to believe. Think about these thoughts as though they were words on a screen "What if i am trapped in a dream right now" they're simply just words. Imagine your favourite cartoon character saying them or say them to the tune of "Happy Birthday". I strongly suggest you read the Happiness Trap or do some research into ACT therapy, helped me massively to combat unwanted or intrusive thoughts

[shrs3 in reply to Anxieteelondin]

Yea i guess my fear is that im really starting to believe them almost. This was the worst of it though and im not sure what triggered it. I think it was the worsening in my derealization a month ago. I slowly wasnt able to leave my house. Now ive left to go to doctor appts and i was really looking forward to going to my sisters practice today but thats not happening anymore😞 I just feel totally hopeless and i want these feelings all to end. Idk why theyre getting worse

[Anxieteelondin in reply to shrs3]

IT TOTALLY SUCKS!!! So i get that but look at it from this perspective.

You don't need to find the trigger of any of these thoughts, you don't need worry about these thoughts constantly reappearing (let them and notice what the thought is and name it as though it's a story with all these different chapters and overtime you have the recurring thought number its chapter in your big book of anxiety)

Don't wish for these feelings to end, because you need to face this. The more you try to plead with yourself the more this lingers and the less and less comfortable you feel. Just mentally say hello to the thought notice its presence, don't run from it or push it away think about it let it live and breathe through it.

These things all helped me. During my recovery I have had so many slip ups and "turns for the worse" but try not to let it get to you and don't feel hopeless. You haven't failed because you feel anxious again you're getting stronger because the anxiety doesn't know how to present itself so it's going to continue to find new ways to get to you before you can even begin to guess what way that would be

[shrs3 in reply to Anxieteelondin]

Yes,youre right