Still drowning in my thoughts

[anxiousalexis]

If anyone has been reading my posts, you guys would know my main anxiety is me growing up. (I'm 18.) I've been doing better dealing and handling it but the thoughts never leave my mind. Little things can trigger me for a moment. I'm not happy. Idk what this is. Nostalgia gives me anxiety and I just feel trapped. Therapy doesnt help bc I just hear the same things. I'm tired, I just wanna live life. I'm still young but my mind makes me think I'm this adult that needs my crap together. I'm literally drowning in my thoughts. I take zoloft but i dont know. I just dont feel safe and secure too. I dont know what this fear I have is and how it started. I've been fine. I turned 18 in March and this fear started in August and since the thoughts of growing up and not being able to go back to the past dont go away! Nothing people tell me helps. How the heck do I accept it? People have been rough with me about it.. that doesnt help. People have been kind to me about it.. that doesnt help. LIKE WHY ME?!

[anxiousalexis]

I feel like im annoying already lol im annoying myself

[mailime in reply to anxiousalexis]

You're not being annoying, you just have emotions which is fine. I also feel the same about growing up (I'm 17, almost 18) I think that we are taking more responsibility on at this age but also with that we will get more freedom. You can travel, find more friends etc. Just try and think of growing up as positive, it's the beginning of a new adventure when we finish education.

As for the little things, they get to me too. I think we should try and look at the bigger picture. We are 18, things are changing which means we are going to have tonnes of opportunities for it to get better.

Hope you feel better.

[anxiousalexis in reply to mailime]

Im gonna try to have that mindset. Thank you