Emetophobia

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The terrible nausea started my senior year of high school & I struggled with going to my college orientation because of the length and being so far away from my home (my college was 2 hours away). When I went to college I was very nervous because I didn't think I could make it up there. Surprisingly I got much better when I went to college. I found that the things I thought I needed like staying close to my home, keeping myself secluded from my friends etc I didn't actually need and I think that really helped me. Well long story short I got pregnant my second semester and had to come back home due to terrible morning sickness and anxiety over that. The pregnancy was extremely hard for me because of the morning sickness & the anticipation of the delivery & the thought that I might be sick while giving birth. Things got better for me once again after I had my son but a couple of weeks ago I came down with the stomach flu. It was the worst nausea I have ever experienced & I threw up for the first time since I was 12 (I'm almost 21 now). I realized that the throwing up wasn't actually as terrible as I thought it would be & I was absolutely deathly afraid of throwing up before. I thought that since I threw up the whole emetophobia thing would go away but I was wrong. Instead everytime I start to feel nauseous I think that I have the stomach flu again because my nausea is so much more intense now. I fear being stuck with the terrible nausea for days like I was when I was sick. Nothing seems to bring me relief anymore. I hardly ever leave my house & I can totally relate to the feeling of not wanting to wake up. When I wake up I just wonder how I will make it through the day & usually spend a large potion of my day crying. I have lost so many friends because I don't usually explain all of this to everyone or no one understands. I am also on the verge of losing my job because of how much time I am taking off. I got in contact with one of the only psychologists I could find that deals specifically with emetophobia. She is great. She will do skype chats so it doesn't matter where you live or if you don't feel well enough to leave the house. I got prescribed celexa but am afraid of taking it because of the side effects. If anyone can relate or has emetophobia feel free to message me

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Hi I also suffer with this and can relate to everything you say, I have just started having hypnotherapy for it, have only had 2 sessions so far but I am really hoping it will help me, it's really deep relaxation.