self-esteem

[NanaMonyea12]

Does anyone on here feel defeated by your appearance ? I am overweight, old, and feel very ugly most days. I mean I know I am a pretty nice person, but I have struggled with my weight since I was 8 yrs. old. I also have a history of anorexia 2 times in my life.

[TLCTNT]

Hi! I am overweight tipping the scales at 300lbs now at 52. In High School I was a firm, active and toned 220 so looked like 170. I have an eatting disorder which is the oppisite of anorexia, I'm a foodie. Food is my crutch and if we get low on food I get angry. I haven't wore make-up in years, but keep buying the high end kind with the thought that when I get my walk in closet finished and a vanity, I will. I only color my gray hair when my step dad tells me it looks like H***. I miss who I used to be, all dressed up, heels, hair done, face on and my handsom boyfriend beside me. But I changed and now I let anxiety, etc... control my life. I think I'm ugly and fat and people think I'm desperate. I lose 20lbs, gain 40. My back and arthritis keep me from being active and stopped me from going to the gym. I know exactly where you are coming from, I'm already there.

[NanaMonyea12 in reply to TLCTNT]

Thank you for the reply. I just always feel less than anyone...I have had a weight issue since 8 yrs. of age. The ONLY time that I was thin was the two times in my life that I was anorexic. I know that my husband gets upset with me for not exercising, but like you I have back problems. I have arthritis in my spine. Herniated discs. I limp from the pain. I have fibromyalgia, a blood clotting disorder, and the list goes on...Maybe someday I will accept myself. I hope the same for everyone...

[TLCTNT in reply to NanaMonyea12]

I would have to say in my opinion, your husband has the problem not you. If he knows of your pain and wants you to exercise anyway, buy him a Barbie doll.