I am freaking out right now. It is 6:30 am right now and I haven't slept for a single minute. I was up all night. I had a coffee at about 9pm, so the caffeine could have had an effect. I also slept in until about 1pm the day before, which would explain why I wasn't tired. But I'm really nervous. I was on my phone scrolling through social media when I realized how late it was, but I wasn't tired. Then, in the middle of the night I got the stronge urge to journal. I wrote 9 PAGES, I couldn't stop. I just felt like I had so much in my mind because I've been really stressed lately. Exams just finished and I'm on Christmas break now. While journaling, I got a pain in my lower right side along with nausea, so I feared it was appendicitis. This kept me up for a little while longer. Then I looked at the clock and it was about 5:30 am. I was wide awake and still am, even though I haven't slept. I used to have a fear of "going crazy" that I constantly obsessed over. It was an anxiety thing and eventually passed. Now that I didn't sleep last night, I'm scared its mania or something and now my fear is back. I'm panicking and freaking out. I feel like crying. It can't be that, it's my worst fear. In need of reassurance.