there isn't much point to this post to be honest but I'm having a really tough time of it at the moment and I just wanted to speak to someone that understands. I've had health anxiety a bit as long as I can remember but its been really bad these last few years since I had my kids. Over the last few years I've had genuine health problems but nothing horrendous. the problem is that as soon as I have symptoms of something I manage to convince myself I'm dying. At the moment I've been having an on and off sore throat and hoarse voice for a few months. This last month I'm also getting and irritating kind of burning feeling in my upper chest that comes and goes. I'm also really tired although some days I feel fine. I've seen a doctor who has put me on omeprazole tablets for acid reflux (both my dad.and brother have this do maybe it runs in the family?) but after 3weeks I still haven't had much improvement. The doctor wanted me to do a 2month course and see if it helped so I know I'm not yet half way through but I was really hoping to see a big improvement by now. As always my mind keeps going back to thinking this is something horrendous. I was starting to feel a little better (both with the symptoms and mentally) then made the mistake of posting on another website on an acid reflux board. I was only asking about anything else I could do to help (diet etc) and someone very well meaning said if I haven't been to a doctors already I should speak to a doctor because although unlikely my symptoms could be 'something more ominous'. I know I'm only 31 and I've already seen a doctor but now I'm completely panicking. I've just been on a weeks holiday with my family and it should.have been wonderful but I spent the whole time worrying and withdrawn. I feel like I cant be a good mother or wife when I'm like this and I don't seem to get joy out of anything in my life right now. I'm also exhausted most of the time. I don't have insomnia or anything like that but having started to use a fitbit to track my sleep it does look like on average I'm restless or awake (even though I'm not always aware of it) at least 20 or so times a night so it looks like my quality of sleep I pretty rubbish.
sorry for rant but no-one else I know gets what I'm going through and just treats me like I'm deliberately being miserable which makes me feel even worse.