I'm hoping by writing this blog it might help to get some stuff off my chest. I've suffered anxiety all my life(I'm 44). I now also have very bad fibromyalgia which has stopped me from working. My anxiety comes and goes depending on the stress I'm under.
I've started having a few problems with my next door neighbours,nothing major but we used to get on well but it's going downhill and I feel very upset about it as I've had terrible neighbour trouble before in different places and the thought of going through it again terrifies me. I'm on my own with my two teenagers. I feel they don't like me as I don't work and I've heard them put me down when they thought I couldn't hear them. They are a married couple with two young children. The wife is very sour looking and loves to moan,her husband is much nicer but not long ago he went mad a the lady who does my garden for walking on his front garden which is the only way to get to mine. I've been doing this for years but suddenly they have got funny about it. Now I have to walk all the way round the block to get to my garden. It doesn't sound a lot but it is for me when I struggle with walking. I can't face any confrontation soi haven't asked them about it. Then I heard her moaning about me have a gardener!! I'm ill and they know that. After I heard that I stopped talking to the woman. Then last weekend I found I have graffiti on my front wall,we have someone in our town going round doing this everywhere and they haven't caught the person yet,he does the same thing every time. I was so upset to find it as I feel it's another thing these people will moan about. The council won't help me I've got to get this stuff off myself. My anxiety has gone crazy and I can't seem to get control over it.
On top of all this I get Disability living allowance which allows me to have a car otherwise I wouldn't get out,however I've been struggling with driving so I've ordered an automatic car which is coming on Wednesday. I wish I hadn't ordered it now as I know it will be another thing for my neighbours to moan about and it wouldn't surprise me if they tried to get it taken away from me.
I've also had to stop seeing my counsellor as she was picking on me as well! She told me I was a victim and was full of self pity. Now I actually think she is right. I've got to stand up for myself but my mum also had trouble with neighbours and she made herself ill through all the fighting. My dad on the the other hand kept his silence which seems to be a better approach as it prevents arguments.
Any support would be great as I feel totally on my own with this. Thank you.