I'm not sure I can do this on my own anymore.

[Techgal3708]

I have always struggled with depression, even as a child. I can remember hating myself even before I started kindergarten. This year has been more than I can handle. I got to a place where I have never been, emotionally and if I stay here, I know I won't last. So.... Since actually therapy is too expensive, I'm hoping this will help.

[Aaron76]

If ya need to chat about anything I can chat with you. Anxiety and panic disorder is no joke. Been dealing with it since I was 35.

[Techgal3708 in reply to Aaron76]

How do you cope?

[bluesky85]

hello@ Techgal3708: my pleasure to meet withyou on here today,this is a place and home here you can trust to put yourself in . Now there is another place where you can interact with people who like you too it called Heypeer.com and remember this You are not alone in this., love

[LoveforAll41]

Howdy and welcome Techgal, I am sorry you are going through such a rough time. Have you been in therapy before?

I think those with more capacity than I can make a lot of progress with self help stuff in books and youtube and whatnot. I love the book "Feeling Great" by David Burns. I hope you can find some peace at this time ☮️

[Techgal3708 in reply to LoveforAll41]

When I was in highschool, many many many years ago, I had a spell where I was trying to get up enough courage to slit my wrists. I would cut a little deeper every time. Another student saw the marks one day and the school made me see a counselor. I just told him what he wanted to hear and that was it. I haven't been back since.

[Needtovent]

Welcome to the group. It is scary to feel like you’re at a point you’ve never experienced, at least emotionally. Try and think of all the new things you’ve experienced (good and not so good) and gotten through. It takes time and practice. This is a safe place. If you’re not with a therapist, have you talked with your MD?

[Techgal3708 in reply to Needtovent]

I don't see a doctor regularly so I don't think medication is an option. I'm hoping I can do it without having to be prescribed anything anyways. It's kind of funny since I work in a pharmacy, but I don't trust myself to take them appropriately. I would like to know why I can't just be happy.