Idk if it's a good idea to leave mom alone. Next week she's off work and i planned to escape but idk if sis will come home and idk

[Against_the_current]

If mom likes being alone (like i do) that she doesn't let me come back home

[Journeywomyn]

Hello I am a NIPMUC INDIAN SHAMAN, light WHITE CANDLES . CHANT LEAVE ME ALONE. I HAVE NOTHING FOR YOU.

AWAY

JOURNEYWOMYN

[Against_the_current in reply to Journeywomyn]

Thanks

[SoporRose]

Stay put. Try to remember the ways your mom has shown she loves you, such as when she's taken care of you when you're sick and how she provides you with food and water. Those may be minimal efforts, but I do think your mom loves you, even if she doesn't show it well. Malybe ask her to go for a walk with you. Tell her something nice, like "Mom, I'm looking forward to having some time with you while you're on a break. Let's make dinner together." You won't be able to correct all the unfortunate habits, but maybe you can set a more positive tone for the next week.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I'm already leaving tomorrow. I won't stay, i just worried about her. When i ask her to do something toghether she just tells me to do it. I see she loves me which makes leaving harder. My mind is racing so bad these two days i spent with her. Yesterday i was absolutely drained, today im overthinking everything

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I’m wishing you well and hope you can find some peace in your hostel.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thank you. You know it's a miserable place, i just panicked and tried to download a game while im still here and i have wifi and i messed up and my sister is giving me zero attention and being rude and mom is cleaning and has the house upside down

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

How long can you stay there?

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I planned one week till mom goes back to work. I just got a call for a job in my homecity, they need to see me on Monday so i have to go back on Sunday but im scared if mom's drunk, or arrive at Monday morning but i will be scared

[gajh]

Hi. I just wanted to check in with you today and see how you are doing? I am thinking of you.

[Against_the_current in reply to gajh]

Thank you. I'm struggling so much. I can't stop overthinking every move of mine because it could have consequences

[gajh in reply to Against_the_current]

Did you decide to stay at your Mom's?

Have you made any progress in finding a therapist?

[Against_the_current in reply to gajh]

No, im leaving today. She's going crazy. She decided to clean the whole house and it's a mayhem, i don't have where to sit. I will come back and think about therapist and psychiatrist. I wonder whether i need psychiatrist or if it's my stress and if i can bear new meds. I liked 3 therapists in my city from my research (i want clinical, CBT and EMDR and i had that in uni city but because of grandma she gave up on me). So there's a really busy but i guess good clinical psychologist lady, one lady that does EMDR and one guy that studied it the west and does hypnotherapy. I will write another post about them. I just don't know who to trust. And they're costly